Have you ever spent so much time thinking about the everything that has went in your life? how you hate yourself? how you’re such a failure? you cannot seem to do anything right? your life is a big jumbled mess. you cannot even feel anymore. you have been hurt and have hurt everyone who seems to come into your life. you are just bitter, at anything, anyone and everything. you are like a ticking time bomb who is going to slowly self destruct. and when you self destruct. there will not be anyone there to pick up the pieces. you have to force smiles on your face, you think about everything all the time. there seems like genuine happiness is not a goal you’re going to achieve.